29.3.05

let's stop this talk of action

during ltm, a band is playing in detroit who i've been wanting to see for awhile
defiance ohio !
it's saturday night
at the trumbullplex
which is apparently an anarchist commune
i think it's "pay what you can"
they're good at music
and from ohio, i think
anyone wanna go?

24.3.05

canadaface

mont reeeeeeeeeeeal (okay on the enlglish side, shunned on the french side) was an adventure. it's time i began taking advantage of buffalo's geography beyond pennsylvania and ohio, because there's lots of canada and new york to explore that has thus far been left untamed. justin and mike were interesting voyage partners. neither of them EVER leaves the buffalo area, which is so weird to me. yet all too true. so all jokes lead back to buffalo. their favorite things were this bag we saw on the highway while we were waiting to get our ticket, and st hubert, le poulet cher. moi, j'ai adore que le francais etait partout, et je me sentais victorieuse parce que je comprendrais beaucoup de la langue. we learned french slang. we looked at things and people. we can never return, unless i pay those tickets, which i guess i will. we did not hit up the french clubbing scene, unfortunately, nor did we find the karaoke we so desperately desired. we did find the sex district. and the "peace and love" district. i saw no water, but there was this tilty tower in the distance. in montreal, almost everyone speaks both french and english, which is perfect for me in terms of comprehension. mazzy was an AWESOME hostess, she even sang us to sleep. and took us to an uncomfortably fancy italian dinner. luckily, we won 'em over with charm. and a lasagna-eating challenge, and the lighting of the candle.

tomorrow the search for karaoke will finally be fruitful.
because
we're
going to the tudor lounge, which sounds sketchaholic, but
if i can handle it,
you can handle it.

montreal slang -- "casse!" (equals "sucka, you got served!" in english, as i understand it)

bad taste in your mouth comes standard.
bet against me, i dare you.

22.3.05

all that hearting

i always kid myself into thinking that fall is my favorite season in buffalo. but in reality, it's now. march. everything's muddy, it's still freezing, but it's like the entirety of the greater buffalo area heaves this giant sigh of relief that winter is finally over.

monika's pretentious friends liked the game of tape sharpie and adjectives. "are you labeling me? psh." became "we should wear these to the bar, i'll put it on my door, let's do this next time too, you should bring her around more often." anyone can play their game.
mine was:
gregarious contagious obsolete threshold

tomorrow-- montreal avec mike. the adventure to end all adventures, probablement!

20.3.05

riddle me sideways, riddle me backwards

sometimes i honestly feel as though i should have an automatic disclaimer attached: "hey my name is lauren -- i break everything i touch." you can take this literally and figuratively, fancy that.

george was/is the catalyst for some serious thought about what it is to be back in op. and what it is is kind of crappy. i am freaking out and it's only day one.

wish me luck, i'm going in.

17.3.05

drop beats, not bombs

so my new favorite thing to do is to stop in the middle of whatever conversation-- whether it be over dinner, a movie, studying, whatever, and say "imagine having sex with a sword." really, imagine it. grimaces galore.

so since the moment george's plane touched down, it has been a whirlwind of sex and drugs. and key phrases and commiseration and nostalgia and smiles and metaphors and inside jokes and foreign affairs discussion and dance parties and dangerous ideas. friday we will drink the Growler, a 64 oz. beer, in celebration of his last hurrah and my first.

spring break 2k5! sierra's agenda planner reads as follows:
saturday- spring
sunday- break
monday- beer
tuesday- sex
wednesday- sex
thursday- cancun
friday- cancun
saturday- beer
sunday- The Real Cancun
i suppose i will be following a similar agenda.

predicament: what to do with a 6ft tall nigerian guy for a month? where will he sleep? what will he eat? will he be awesome?
answers: who cares, who cares, who cares, YES

kneecaps burning and we stood swaying in a purple-lit room. dry eyes, wet palms, we hummed, he stopped. she danced and danced while no one else moved or spoke and when my vision blurred she slipped away to vomit and came back like nothing had happened.

i learned the only spanish word i think i will ever REALLY need to know, though it is apparently more peruvian than spanish. chancon(a) = dweeb

drop beats, not bombs

so my new favorite thing to do is to stop in the middle of whatever conversation-- whether it be over dinner, a movie, studying, whatever, and say "imagine having sex with a sword." really, imagine it. grimaces galore.

so since the moment george's plane touched down, it has been a whirlwind of sex and drugs. and key phrases and commiseration and nostalgia and smiles and metaphors and inside jokes and foreign affairs discussion and dance parties and dangerous ideas. friday we will drink the Growler, a 64 oz. beer, in celebration of his last hurrah and my first.

spring break 2k5! sierra's agenda planner reads as follows:
saturday- spring
sunday- break
monday- beer
tuesday- sex
wednesday- sex
thursday- cancun
friday- cancun
saturday- beer
sunday- The Real Cancun
i suppose i will be following a similar agenda.

predicament: what to do with a 6ft tall nigerian guy for a month? where will he sleep? what will he eat? will he be awesome?
answers: who cares, who cares, who cares, YES

kneecaps burning and we stood swaying in a purple-lit room. dry eyes, wet palms, we hummed, he stopped. she danced and danced while no one else moved or spoke and when my vision blurred she slipped away to vomit and came back like nothing had happened.

i learned the only spanish word i think i will ever REALLY need to know, though it is apparently more peruvian than spanish. chancon(a) = dweeb

9.3.05

cuddle box A K$$

i do enjoy haikus. but they are so limiting. especially since i am so verbose.

things the eyes, the mind are looking forward to/at--
1- mountain mayhem, my friends. 3 days, 2 nights, high altitude, lots of cheap liquor, doublingtripling (i'm not keeping track) the capacity of the quarters... i expect nothing less than wonderful. it will be another of those clashing world things, as i generally keep things so neatly separated but everyone will slam together at once over costco spaghetti and bigger skies than usual.
2- dakar. dakar. dakar. in hinduism and jainism and buddhism they believe that repeating the god's name is stronger than the actual god him or herself. i shall take up this belief and wish it so. the god is senegal. maybe that's weird. one year. george will be in kenya simultaneously. george will be in colorado in two days.
3- paris. latin quartier. plus de francais que je peux imaginer. je serai ... je ne sais pas. heureusement, ce voyage inclue un petit voyage en espagne ou en angleterre. encore une fois, je ne sais pas ... je ne me fiche pas! il sera merveilleuse de quitter les etats unis.
4- buffalo to an extent. montreal an astronomical unit more than buffalo.

this all includes leaving the boulder area. we're so landlocked and don't care at all.

sierrgorg and i may start a 'zine. i had no idea til today what this was, but i think if we can create something inane yet irreverent yet brilliant yet subtly satirical -- it will be a smash success. it will circle the world over and come back to us as a paper airplane, which of course is symbolism beyond compare. i enjoy having ridiculous projects. does not matter which way is up.

we ran and he tripped us.

6.3.05

"nineteen year olds just don't understand" -w. smith

our neighbors who have been our neighbors the whole year and who i have never met came and wrote "happy neighbor" on the fridge and had exchangeable, everyday names, and had beers in their back pockets but i was drinking pretty things with pineapple and vanilla and lime and foodcoloring that created bright yellow and dark dark green. and they said 'is that your excuse for smoking cigarettes?' in regard to the brand and i said no but i didn't say no, i don't smoke often, it doesn't matter. first major use of the balcony, which is really a shame because it's so perfect overlooking the street great for hurling insults or learning to spit or reading that book with the pigs and the pearls.

today everythings brighter i think and i will make pancakes with strawberries on top and buttons that condemn the marginalization of women.

2.3.05

ever since my contacts got covered in blood, my eyes have been aching

i feel as though i'm getting smarter. but at the same time the creative juices are packing up and moving out, useless. picture that indirect relationship. one graph that makes me real nervous. maybe it's not 'smarter' at all.

dear god,
you're so obvious.
love, lauren.

1.3.05

disgruntled republican in the Colorado Daily: "Kerry throws like a girl!"

fran, bill, archie, tom
the bus drivers that i love
charlie, sonja, rob

superfood attacks
ally: clickersapien
earth is in peril

dj speaks the truth
he says my name strangely too
new york is his home

lemongrass tea bag
you try walking barefoot there!
i need to chart this

computer virus
blame hastily put on skype
now i redownload